2010 started unfriendly with me. I was job ess and broke – scrimping on the meager writer’s earnings for my board and lodging. It was indeed an ugly yet challenging start for a part time student, part time writer, long distance mom and a restless viajera like me.
Work and Studies
Career-wise, the past year placed me in a state of crisis. I lost almost all confidence in my writing, I’ve a number of unfinished projects which I shamelessly ignored and forgot. I felt the need to do something else aside from staring blankly on empty computer screen. Even school papers seemed too much to digest for my ulcerated brain. After finishing the semester, I got two jobs – one which lasted for 2 months and another which lasted for about 3 months.
My stay at the first one was short and sweet, it was fun yet two months wasn’t enough for me to be fully engaged in the job. I was pirated by the next job in just a matter of hours. We all thought that I’d be swimming in here like a fish in the water soon as I jumped in but it just wasn’t like that. I was overwhelmed all the time and it seemed like I couldn’t get things right anyway I do it. Soon I learned to love and hate the job and the people, the trips, the overtime work and all else in between. But again, something else came up, with better offers and a more interesting job description – and finally that is where I am right now.
For what went well in my work and studies: Learned to prioritize
What went wrong: Procrastination, Failing to plan and planning to fail..
Places for improvement: writing and reading habits, schooling (again), personal development
Travel and Leisure
Despite being broke, I was able to go to different places and experience new things- thanks to some good old souls! 🙂
Some of the best trips I had happened this year though they were all confined here in Luzon.
Q1 took me to Mt. Pulag in Benguet with Roslee, Jane and Tons, Baguio, Anawangin Cove in Zamabales and Mt Batulao in Batangas.
Q2 was spent in Tagaytay, EK then in Bicol where we once again visited Amater to relive our high school and college vacation days. It was also during this period that I experienced Nagsasa – which is now one of my most favorite places in Luzon and the Mt. Tarak climb which rendered me crippled for a couple of days in July.
Q3 trips where all limited to OB’s except for Jean’s vacation in September. I was able visit most part of Laguna such as LB, Sta. Cruz, Liliw, Pila, Nagcarlan, Majayjay and others as part of a field trip with Health Implementers. I also spent a week in Albay for a training and this gave me precious time with Teloy while working. Q3 also took me to Calaruega, a quiet beach in Bataan, a turtle conservatory and to Mt. Samat.
Q4 started with an epic trip to Luisiana, Laguna then to Cam Sur for the 1st CamSur Int’l. DB Fest. A month was spent in Bicol and then the rest of this period was consumed by gigs, gimmicks and parties.
For lack of anything else to do, I spent a lot of time climbing walls and seriously rowing. And just when I think i was getting good at climbing, work turns up and made me busy. So I need to do this again regularly, luckily found climb buddies and we’ve now set some scheds.
This has got to be the good or best part of my 2010. The last part should be the Bad, but it’s not actually bad.. just a realization of thoughts, decisions and moves which made me feel bad and worked out to be better.
I’ve met and got to know many incredible people this year. They’ve spiced up my 2010 with much life, laughter and love.. hehe and I also strengthened the ties I have with the bestest of friends. Thanks for the connection, for being awesome, for the learnings you’ve shared, for the inspiration and for continuously nudging me when everything seems to stack up.
2010 is also a year of losing and gaining..
of failure to keep communication lines open,
of keeping mum about issues best resolved openly..
of being unassuming and ignoring..
it is a year of avoidance..
But then, this year made me appreciate some very important people in my life – my family. In the past years of working here in Manila, I wasn’t able to spend much time with them especially my Teloyskie. 2010 gave me a couple of months to be a hands-on mom to my son. I got to know him better – his likes, his interests, his tempers, his attitudes and his character.
I learned how mule-headed we are both.
How to tease him mercilessly until he grow mad.
How to quiet down his cries with a promise of chocolates.
How to repair broken bikes and dislocated car wheels,
I learned to kiss skinned knees and chase ‘lagnat-laki’ away,
with cuddles and even tighter squeeze. 🙂
My family has always been very supportive and it was this year that I have fully appreciated them. I’ve never thanked them enough for the things they did for me and my son. 2010, with all the challenges tied to it made me realize this like a slap in the face. Been too caught up with my issues earlier on 2010 that I overlooked the challenges that my family is going through at the same time. Eventually life shook me hard enough to see this. As the year comes to end, everything seems to fall into their places…
When 2011 closes I’d be 10/10 satisfied if I can achieve these ~
1. closer family ties. more vacations spent at home and being a mom to Teloy – (non quantifiable)
2. debt free!
3. complete DPM asap!
4. learn to ride a bike..
5. climb Mt. Apo
6. go back to writing
7. cross out at least 10 off my goal list for 2010.
Habits to cultivate to achieve my goals..
An essential technique I’ve learned this year is to take notes.. we take notes to remember things… and we write to de-clutter our minds.
There are still a lot of loose ends but 2011 came in friendly with a bright career path ahead. There are promises of more travel, learning and discovering.